Every boy or girl entering or already in their adolescence will experience such episodes. They are enough to cloud a confused gaze and fill a sensitive and delicate heart.
Adolescence is a term that, despite frequent mentions in textbooks, television, or the internet, still feels unfamiliar to me.
A cold night, the sound of wind chimes in my ears. "Mom, aren't you being too unreasonable? Why do you have to control even how I read?" I slammed the door in anger and threw the book I had been enjoying onto the bed. I slowly curled up in the corner of the bed, hugging my knees and lowering my head, crying like a wounded animal.
Was I being too much?
I picked up the book with a heavy heart, carefully smoothing out the damaged corners. If I went out, I would likely face another lecture. I tiptoed to the door and quietly stepped out. My mother's room was closed; was she asleep? I listened closely, but there was no sound of breathing as I had expected.
Instead, I heard her voice: "She is having another tantrum. I know children this age can be temperamental... It's okay, I will try my best to understand her..." A wave of bitterness washed over me. I never knew my mother was working so hard to understand me; my heart was filled with complex emotions.
Returning to my room, I opened the cabinet and flipped through the photo album of my growing years, looking at the smiles in the pictures. Tears welled up in my eyes. I rested the album behind my head, thinking how every smile in these photos was captured by my parents. Thinking about the call Mom had just made to Dad, I found myself walking toward her room again. After a moment of hesitation, I knocked on the door and slipped a note inside.
"Mom, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lost my temper."
Youth is the process of condensing the beauty and spirit of nature within a house facing the sea. The episodes in youth are a blend of bitterness and sweetness.
May the wind gather every speck of dust, may youth be imprinted on the journey of memory, and may all troubles end in warmth. May all these episodes become the most beautiful memories of life.
