Whenever we hesitate, we often tell ourselves: it's not that we don't want to do it, but that we can't. Lacking confidence, we often lack the courage to even take the first step. However, without trying, how can we know our limits? Only through striving do we earn the right to admit failure.
I am a timid person. Before taking action, I tend to weigh the pros and cons repeatedly, only proceeding once I am certain I can perform well. Otherwise, even if everyone encourages me and believes in my abilities, I choose to give up. Unfortunately, my capabilities are not sufficient to guarantee confidence in every task.
Thus, the most common situation is that I can find dozens of reasons to quit, yet fail to find a single reason to try. Deep down, I know these reasons are merely products of insecurity, allowing me to abandon opportunities with a clear conscience.
While I am still hesitating, others often step forward voluntarily, completing the task excellently and earning everyone's praise. Although I applaud along with the crowd, I feel a sense of loss, telling myself that if I had done it, it certainly wouldn't have been that good. It is better to praise generously than to risk ridicule for poor performance.
Perhaps it is because I constantly believe I lack ability and exhaustively look for reasons to avoid embarrassment that my insecurity grows deeper. Therefore, when forced to take on a task with no certainty, I always imagine the scenario of failure, proceeding with trembling hands. To my surprise, I managed to complete the task smoothly without any errors.
When everyone praised me as capable, it suddenly dawned on me: don't rush to judge before you've even started trying. Success or failure should be determined by the results, not by speculation. Only after striving do we have the right to say we couldn't do it.
