I knew I was inferior to him, and everyone else did too. Yet, deep down, I never truly admitted it and always struggled against this disparity. When someone bluntly declared in front of the crowd, 'You are simply worse than W, whether in academics or popularity,' I felt utterly devastated. It felt as if the insecurity I had concealed for so long had been ruthlessly exposed.
The school held an essay contest, and both W and I participated. It was a two-hour timed composition. I can no longer recall the specific prompt, but the results remain vivid in my memory: W achieved the highest score and won the first prize, while I only received a third prize. The teacher had noted that any student selected for the competition was guaranteed at least a third prize.
Later, the school organized a knowledge competition. It was a test covering a wide range of extracurricular knowledge, even including riddles. Five students from our class participated, including me. Since I rarely read extracurricular materials, I found the paper extremely difficult and awkward to handle. When the honor roll was posted, four of the top five spots belonged to our class. W prominently occupied the first prize position, whereas I failed to make the list at all. The teacher was thrilled and publicly praised the four achievers in class. I, on the other hand, curled up on my desk like a wounded cat, unable to meet the teacher's eyes. In that moment, I deeply realized how mediocre I truly was.