It is a Sunday morning. Although it is the beginning of winter, the sun is bright and the scenery is beautiful, so I do not feel the cold or loneliness. After getting off the bus, I walk toward my intended destination. I know that this will be another challenging morning.
Last night, I was still hesitating about whether to go or not. In the past, I would have simply gone, but things are different now, even if the frequency of my visits has decreased. I truly love gaming—it is my top priority. Because of this, my mother sent me to Shenzhen, hoping my aunt could help me gain some life experience. Looking back, it seems somewhat absurd, but it has indeed made me visit internet cafes much less frequently, partly out of respect for them.
The trivial advice they give me feels meaningless; when I want to go, no one can stop me. However, having stayed away for so long, I feel somewhat out of habit. While walking, my mind was in turmoil, struggling with indecision. Ultimately, I let go of my rationality and marched toward my goal. When I reached the door, I told myself: just this once, just this once.